The mashup cupboard emptying and Aphrodite-luvvin’ continues, this time with Instamatic on the mix (could just as well be a DJNoNo release but it’s more on the serious side; the quote at the start from one of my favourite films Garden State about family changes was rather spookily prophetic – this track was finished in July last year!)…anyway this takes Fever Ray’s excellent ‘When I Grow Up’ and makes it share a bunk bed with Aphrodite’s jungle classic ‘Stalker’.
Like some of my mashup vids I sometimes make mashups or longmixes with a feeling or specific intention to be about something – this was definitely about me having to empty my room at home the year previous – and became prophetic about the thoughts around my mother’s death and emptying the house. I don’t think we really appreciate those things til they’re gone.
Why did I hang on to it so long? Dunno, I rarely release stuff anymore…I still create mashups but have felt really apathetic about releasing them (ditto with podcasts, bar the making bit!). I think the inevitable criticism or attention wears heavy on me, as I’ve said before I make them for me, this is music as I’d like to hear it, or makes me laugh. If anyone else likes it it’s a bonus…but I’d be lying if external opinion had no bearing which tends to lead to apathy or being wary about letting others hear it, as a really negative review can make me disown ‘my children’ for years (see Stone Cold Roses for that one). It’s also why if you dig around the Wimpy player on the Artists site sometimes you might get the odd unreleased ‘surprise’ 😉